I have been working on a project for my family and trying to do something productive. Many of you know, and some may not, that my oldest sister Trisha died when I was 14. It has been eleven years today- and each year when February 21st rolls around I feel overwhelming grief and I don't know what to do... I don't want to "celebrate" but I always feel like I need to do something special. Well, this year I decided create a blog in her memory. I have been through hundreds of pictures and letters. I have laughed and cried and seen her life in a way I never had before. There were pictures and stories I hadn't seen in years, and I saw them in a new way now that I am a wife and mother. As I looked at pictures of her as a small child my heart ached with grief for my parents who lost their sweet daughter. New understanding and grief came over me because I know now how much you love your children, and I can't imagine how I would feel if I ever lost Easton. Just trying to understand it as a parent breaks my heart. As I looked at pictures of her with her husband Andy I wondered just how their short time together has affected him in his life. I looked back at all our silly times and realized that the few pictures we have together can never really capture the love that we had.
I think I miss her more now that ever. I know there is no way I could have ever done this before now. There are just so many emotions involved, but I have just wanted to for so long and since my mom was coming I asked her to bring some pictures and things to add. I am really in awe about the life my sister led. I always looked up to her because she was my "cool older sister" and it always seemed like she had it all together. I just can't believe the legacy she left behind with such a short time here. I want to keep her memory alive because she was a stong, motivated, kind, loving, smart, beautiful person and the best example anyone could have. When someone you love dies there is nothing you can ever do to feel complete again. There is just a peice of you that goes with them and you can't ever be the same I guess. I do know however, that God loves us, and that we will see her again. I want to live my life so that she will be as proud of me when I see her again as I am of her...
Anyways... if you want to know more about my beautiful Trisha-... the link is Missing Trisha. It's my work in progress(:
I think I miss her more now that ever. I know there is no way I could have ever done this before now. There are just so many emotions involved, but I have just wanted to for so long and since my mom was coming I asked her to bring some pictures and things to add. I am really in awe about the life my sister led. I always looked up to her because she was my "cool older sister" and it always seemed like she had it all together. I just can't believe the legacy she left behind with such a short time here. I want to keep her memory alive because she was a stong, motivated, kind, loving, smart, beautiful person and the best example anyone could have. When someone you love dies there is nothing you can ever do to feel complete again. There is just a peice of you that goes with them and you can't ever be the same I guess. I do know however, that God loves us, and that we will see her again. I want to live my life so that she will be as proud of me when I see her again as I am of her...
Anyways... if you want to know more about my beautiful Trisha-... the link is Missing Trisha. It's my work in progress(:
8 comments:
Char, I went to the link about your sister and read it. That was really neat. I think it's shows a lot of love to remember her this way. I think you had told me about your sister, but I had forgotten.
Thanks for all your blogs.
Kristy Peterson
Oh Char, I'm so sorry for your loss. I know how it hurts when you loose someone you love and how the grief can go on and on. Like you, as a parent, I don't know how I could ever get through it.
I looked at the blog and it is a truly a wonderful tribute to your sister.
Oh, Char you make me cry. My heart aches too for your mother as I think of the loss from a mothers point of view. You are amazing though. I know Trisha is proud of you. I love you!
Megan
Trisha was so awesome. I remember all our little singing events. It was so fun to go to your house and be around girls. I remember us all having fake microphones and singing the lollipop song and the motorcycle my boyfriends back song. She was such a great role model and I really looked up to her. I remember being so jealous that you guys had all sisters and could share clothes and stuff. I miss her too. The blog that you are working on is beautiful and a wonderful tribute to her.
Brook
This is a cool way to remember your sister, and it's kind of fun for people who don't know you as well, like me, to see another part of your life. You have so much love and kindness for people. Thanks for being a friend to me and others. I'm sure your sister is proud to be remembered by a younger sister like you. Amy
What a sweet tribute. Well done!
Very cool Char! I love the site about Trisha, she is a beautiful girl. What a tribute, very nicely done.
you cease to amaze me girl. You have such a big heart and have grown so much since that time. I have vivid images and memories of it and wow, you have done awesome. Eternal families are a great thing aren't they?
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